30 Day Challenge - Day 26
Five things you want to say to five people.
This was a tough one and threw me off for a while. Communication about what I'm feeling is tough for me, and I avoided answering this one. I thought it important to get through because it was difficult though.
My Oldest Friend:
I have always been a fan of TV. I liked cartoons as much as the next kid, and we had some really great ones in the 80’s. PBS has always had a special place in my heart though. Shows like Mr. Rodger’s neighborhood, Reading Rainbow, Sesame Street and all the cooking shows. They were just nice and interesting without being loud or talking down to you. They gave you a window into the world you might not see otherwise. People with cool jobs, or doing something nice telling you that you can do it too. It was really great to see grownups doing things like art and science or being a part of the community. These made the subjects we learned in school seem more real. It made the cheesy “give a hoot, read book” 80’s educational slogans seem like more than just empty words. Learning could lead you to do cool things just like they say and the people featured in these programs were proof. I still love educational TV, and hope it hangs around growing forward into the future. I truly feel the lack of these options has already taken a toll on society and will only get worse without more funding.
My Lost Friend:
It hurts we don’t talk anymore. The three of us were good friends, especially you and I at first until my dumb feelings and drinking. I just kind of shut down and made no effort to talk about anything. In addition to that, I didn’t understand how anxiety or depression manifests itself, nor would I want to accept it. I should have talked with you guys about how I was feeling like a real human. I didn’t want to admit the friendship might not work out as a result of doing so.
I just tried to bury it all in booze and good times. That actually made things increasingly worse until being around me must have been so frustrating, awkward and sad. That was selfish to everyone and I’m sorry. I understand it’s too late for apologies or reasons, but never the less I am really thankful for that time in our lives. We had so much fun going to parties, shows, the Land, and so much more. I learned from the mistakes and have great memories of the fun times. I hope that someday we can say hello on social media. I wish you the best always.
My Friend Who is Lost:
We often think alike and respond to things shockingly similar. Cooking, our style, conversation topics and humor all so alike. We even share similar worries and tribulations. Lord knows I have my own troubles, but I still worry about you a lot. Too much. I understand the how and why of your predicaments, but it’s been difficult for us to see and hear about. I don’t know what else to say.
My Wife:
With everything going on in this world, it’s hard to believe it’s the same one we started out on way back at the turn of the century. Almost everything seems different especially to me. It’s been quite the last few years in our lives with your dad passing, sobering up and cleaning up around the house. And nothing has seemed normal since Donnie-Dumbass got elected. In the midst of all this change, I’m so thankful for all the history we’ve seen and even for all that is to come with you by my side. You’ve become quite a lovely, capable woman, and I’m so proud. I hope that I can rise and really grow as a person as much as you. Thank you for your patience with my jokes and daily nonsense and tomfoolery. I love you so much.
My Floofy Friend:
My dear cat. You came into our lives at just the right time. There was a lot going on just after we were married and I couldn’t possibly imagine how much I would need your furry support. Sure it was weird getting used to each other, but through the good times and bad; you’re there for me. In sad times you have given me a sense of purpose, hope, and most of all laughs. I can't even believe how cute and amazing it is when you say “haaarrooow” and ask for “num-num”. I feel safer when you growl like a dog to tell me a person is outside, and run around in a circle to warn me of animals. You can be pesty asking for “mmm’s” (treats), or asking to look outside all the time. You’re certainly your own “person” and will swat us if we’re being annoying. I like that though, I know you’re genuine. It can even be really funny like when you pop out and scare me because you think it’s funny. Thank you Poof. I really hope you’re happy and feel well loved and cared for by us. You make us a family.
